boring is sooo nice
I’m enjoying myself growing older….I know if I looked at myself couple of years ago I would probably say “how boring”. Than I was in the phase of life when I knew things are changing and I knew that I was turning into”how boring” so I tried to fight with time in order to stay the same, to not change, to not be boring…and I kind of lost myself. Its like when you are afraid that when you say something out loud it will become touchable, it will turn into fact, the truth that you can’t take back anymore. I knew things changed inside of me, but I played a game for people around, and as they were thinking I have not changed I believed them and played even harder for myself. Until it got me really tired…And now I feel so freed from my own expectations by saying I like to sit in the garden, I like to stay at home in the evening, I don’t need to go party, I don’t want to go party, I want to go for a walk in the wood, I want to sit there and be quiet, I want to drink wine and talk, I like to listen to calm music, I love to be boring…And I enjoy doing all those things that I thought they were on the top of “being OUT” list just couple of years ago. It is so nice to not give a fuck about what is IN, what is cool, what is supposed to be and how…I love to go for a walk, and not talk and just look and have the close ones around and of course dogs….Now we only have two of them in the family, but I’m almost convinced to find a buddy for Mr.T, because I love to watch how pure and clear the relationships between animals are…..and I love to hear Mr.B cooking and Mr.T barking while I’m scanning films, life can be so simple-boring, so nice :)

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