New Zealand video
It is little off topic maybe, for sure out of date….video from our trip to NZ one year ago
Life is just to fast…and I should not have watched it this morning. Seeing Leo so small and cute and still a baby tore me appart. Its unfair that babies are babies for so short and everything else takes ages. I blinked my eyes and he is suddenly so grown up and big and independent and I miss his tinyness. I remember that I always wanted to soak in every single moment with him to feel and keep in my memory and it is only one year and so many moments have been forgoten. I want to recall that touch on his little nose, my fingers through his long hair that were soft like feathers but all I have is videos to remind me of those ephemeral seconds, blinks. And I am thankfull we could have such moments together but its not enough, nothing is enough to soak it all in and not let go.